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Well, I finally got to see the doctor and we heard the heartbeat yesterday.

I’m thinking of changing OBs, but it’s so hard to find an OB who accepts Medi-Cal, new patients AND delivers at my 1st choice hospital. Here’s the deal: I had my appt. for Friday set up for 4 weeks. I thought it was at 2pm, but it turns out it was at 10am and DH had an appt. in Redlands at 10:30am, so we changed it to Monday at 10am. Monday rolls around, we get to the doctors office and we (the whole family) is sitting there…for about 5 min. Seeing as how the first time I saw the Dr. I had to wait an HOUR and I was the only person there, I thought it would be a good idea to ask how long this will take. The receptionist said, “Oh, the Dr. isn’t in the office today. She’s in the Van Nuys office. Do you want to come back in the afternoon?” Now, this is something she could have mentioned when she saw me walk in. We now have actual work to do, so we’re quite busy these days. So I told her, “No…why didn’t you call?”. She said they tried to call on Friday. Trying to call and leaving a message are 2 totally different things. They called (according to Caller ID), but DID NOT leave a message. So we had to reschedule for Tuesday. I told them how this worries me…I mean if they can’t even get a DA scheduled correctly, how am I to rely on them to get her to me when I deliver? They just stared at me.

Yesterday, my appt. was for 10:30am. I got there at 10:20am and asked how long the wait would be. One receptionist hemmed and hawed for bit. I looked at her and said, “You’re supposed to say, 10 - 15 min.” She just giggled. The other receptionist started going on about the tests I was having. I’m confused as to why I need to see the OB to get blood drawn, but whatever. I asked her again how long and she said–wait for it–45 FUCKING minutes. DH said, “Then why didn’t you make the appointment for 11:15?” I explained how that was unacceptable to me, gave her my mobile phone and told her to call me when I was almost ready to be seen. Then we went out and about. Honestly, why do they overbook like that? I’ve changed doctors for this exact reason. It’s BS, that I should have to wait almost an hour to be seen by the doctor for 5 flippin’ minutes. Unacceptable.

So, needless to say, the doctor comes in checks for a heartbeat then friggin’ leaves! No pleasantries or anything and I’m livid. She came back in and I questioned her on it. She apologized, but explain that’s she busy (yeah, jackass cause your staff overbooks you!), but since I’m Medi-Cal, they only cover so much, blah, blah, blah. WTFever…I mentioned my concerns about that cyst and she said, “Oh it’s gone.” I’m like, OK “Dr.” Frist, how do you know if you haven’t seen inside me AND I had horrible pain last night. So needless, to say I kinda lost it and told her that I need a lot more transparency than this. I’m not dazzled by her Dr. degree and that if I’m asking a question, I don’t want to be blown off. My next appt. is on July 5th and we’re gonna sit down and talk or I’m walking.

While I’m on this rant, let me add one more thing. If you are just pissed off, that Sen. Dick Durbin (D-IL) called our soldiers Nazi’s. You’re a fucking moron. No two ways about it. You’re a fucking idiotstick. A sheep. You may as well just go back to sleep until the next celebrity trial can take up the last 3 brain cells in your head.

Or.

You can actually think for yourself. I watched Dick Durbin’s speech on C-SPAN last night. If you actually read what he said, then gather from all of that, that he called our soldiers Nazis, then you have issues. Here’s the full text of what Durbin said last night:

When you read some of the graphic descriptions of what has occurred here [at Guantanamo Bay]–I almost hesitate to put them in the [Congressional] Record, and yet they have to be added to this debate. Let me read to you what one FBI agent saw. And I quote from his report:

On a couple of occasions, I entered interview rooms to find a detainee chained hand and foot in a fetal position to the floor, with no chair, food or water. Most times they urinated or defecated on themselves, and had been left there for 18-24 hours or more. On one occasion, the air conditioning had been turned down so far and the temperature was so cold in the room, that the barefooted detainee was shaking with cold. . . . On another occasion, the [air conditioner] had been turned off, making the temperature in the unventilated room well over 100 degrees. The detainee was almost unconscious on the floor, with a pile of hair next to him. He had apparently been literally pulling his hair out throughout the night. On another occasion, not only was the temperature unbearably hot, but extremely loud rap music was being played in the room, and had been since the day before, with the detainee chained hand and foot in the fetal position on the tile floor.

If I read this to you and did not tell you that it was an FBI agent describing what Americans had done to prisoners in their control, you would most certainly believe this must have been done by Nazis, Soviets in their gulags, or some mad regime–Pol Pot or others–that had no concern for human beings. Sadly, that is not the case. This was the action of Americans in the treatment of their prisoners.

He did not at any point call the soldiers Nazis. Now, explain something to me. Why is it when Democrats make comments and mention “Hitler”, “Nazi” or “fascist”, Republicans go nuts like they’re being measured for their brownshirts?

So let me get this straight, Sen. Robert Byrd (D-W.Va.) tangentially make a reference to Hitler in his remarks on March 1st. Sen. Rick “It’s Latin for Asshole” Santorum (R-Head in his Ass), gets his panties in a twist and wants Byrd to apologize for his remarks.

Sen. Rick Santorum, R-Pa., asked Byrd to retract his comments, stating they “lessen the credibility of the senator and the decorum of the Senate.” The Anti-Defamation League also criticized Byrd.

Not 10 fucking weeks later, Santorum (yeah, that same asshole) says:

I MEAN, IMAGINE, THE RULE HAS BEEN IN PLACE FOR 214 YEARS THAT THIS IS THE WAY WE CONFIRM JUDGES. BROKEN BY THE OTHER SIDE TWO YEARS AGO, AND THE AUDACITY OF SOME MEMBERS TO STAND UP AND SAY, HOW DARE YOU BREAK THIS RULE. IT’S THE EQUIVALENT OF ADOLF HITLER IN 1942 “I’M IN PARIS. HOW DARE YOU INVADE ME. HOW DARE YOU BOMB MY CITY? IT’S MINE.” THIS IS NO MORE THE RULE OF THE SENATE THAN IT WAS THE RULE OF THE SENATE BEFORE NOT TO FILIBUSTER. IT WAS AN UNDERSTANDING AND AGREEMENT, AND IT HAS BEEN ABUSED. IN A SENSE, WHAT WE SEE HERE ON THE FLOOR OF THE UNITED STATES

Okay…we’re not even going to touch the fact that we did NOT bomb Paris in ‘42 (which is why Republican’s need to stop cutting funding to education). Why is it okay for Santorum to make Hitler comparisons, but not Byrd? Oh wait, I know…IOKIYAR: It’s okay if you’re a Republican.

I’m tired of the hypocrisy. Really. Support Sen. Durbin, send his office letters, emails or faxes. Donate money. Do something. Call for Frist to denounce the smear on Durbin.

I am so sick and tired of Republican bullshit. Today Rep. John Conyers (D-MI), is finally holding hearings on the Downing Street Minutes. Congress requested these hearings 40 some-odd days ago. The hearings are being held in a small room, in the fucking basement of the capitol! Bull. Fucking. Shit. Do you know how many congress critters there are? There are 439 people in the House of Representatives. 105 of them signed Conyer’s letter to the White House asking for full disclosure on these minutes.

If the fucking Republicans (who’ve just voted to cut funding to PBS/NPR) gave one iota of crap about “democracy”, then why didn’t they allow them to meet in the big room that hearings are usually held in? Nancy Pelosi tried to reserve the room this morning and the Republicans still blocked her. The room has been sitting empty all day long.

From Democracy CELL PROJECT

UPDATE:15:45:46: SCOOP FROM KAREN AT THE HEARING:HC-5, The Big Room for hearings that are held in Congress, is open, and has been open during this entire time.

House Minority Leader Nancy Pelosi’s office called this morning and requested it, even offering to change the time of the hearing, as the room was open for two hours this morning, but were denied the use of the much larger room by the House Leadership. The evidence is clear–the House Leadership deliberately prevented this hearing from taking place in a room that would accomodate the large number of people slated to attend. Karen asks that everyone put this information out on all the blogs you can. It seems that the House Leadership thinks that it can do things like this without anyone finding out about it. Let’s show them they are wrong.

Oh, yeah….it’s bullshit.

Or how about this: Rep. Marcy Kaptur (D-OH) comes on to speak. She apologizes for the cramped space, then proceeds to tell us that the House leadership slated 11 votes for today. During the same time as the DSM hearing. More votes than they usually have in a week!!! On top of that, they have slated committees to meet during the same time as the DSM hearing. AND they’re having the largest non-military budget being voted on AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME!

And Democrats are obstructionists???

Fucking fuckwads.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR…hello Ms. Miserable. Yep, that’s me. I just got out of the shower and I itch. I hate this, sooooooo much. Like the sore nipples, gas and unruly hair isn’t bad enough, now I itch all over when I get out of the shower. The sad part is that since I can’t stand the smell of me, I want to shower all the time. Of course, if I do, then I must suffer the consequences. So far, I think the only part of my that doesn’t itch is the tops of my feet. It’s so unfair.

I remember the itchy skin when I was pregnant with Ilia. It started around week 22 and lasted until I delivered. Around week 27, it kicked into overdrive. I refused to shower. Hell, I refused to drink a glass of water. Someone please tell me that I won’t have to wait until delivery to end this suffering. I won’t last that long. I’ll be covered in scars and scrapes before Father’s Day, I promise you.

I’m having a hard time here people. Psychologically, I’m just whacked out. Is it right that even though I’m almost in my 14th week (2 more days!), I still don’t feel like I’m pregnant. Okay yeah, I still haven’t had my period, there’s the nausea, hurt boobs, fatigue and leaky giner, but I’ve haven’t seen the baby on an ultrasound yet. Yeah, yeah…I know that ultrasounds weren’t (and in some cases still aren’t) normal and our parent, grandparents and people born thousands of years ago all managed to have babies without ultrasounds, but I’m special. I know you knew that already. I’m just thinking that maybe my OB should be a bit more concerned seeing as how I’ve had 5 miscarriages, 2 of them since I’ve had my daughter and that “large, complex cyst” on my ovary. That’s a bit weird right? I’m thinking I should have had some bloodwork done and a few more ultrasounds by now. I have an appt. next Friday. I’ll talk to her then.

Other than that, I guess I’m doing fine. I’m kinda excited about finishing up week 13 here. As someone on my birth club board said, “Consider that you’re halfway to the halfway mark.” (Thanks, Jenn!). Optimism abounds…one of the other ladies had her baby this past weekend. That’s exciting. Her pregnancy went by fast, at least to me. It’s June already and I only have 6 more months to go. Unfortunately for me, that seems too long away since my birthday is in November. But I know that come, September, I’ll be all “Where’d the summer go?” and my birthday will still be too far away.

Anyway, a little about the pregnancy…I get these updates from iVillage or BabyCenter each week on my pregnancy. It’s kinda cool, but one of those sites can only tell you what size your baby is in terms of food. So, I’ve gone through, raisin, grape, walnut, fig, plum and lime. Now, I don’t know about you, but here in SoCal, I’ve seen grapes bigger than limes. I’ve seen some puny-assed limes. Needless to say, I’m on the verge of making a Waldorf salad. I hope next week it’s not an apple.

Oooh, let me tell you about a little bit of stupid that happened this week, and no I don’t mean the 4,879,345 “pie diaries” on dKos…I got this letter from the Medi-Cal people saying that my application has been cancelled. Well, I think I, appropriately, freaked out. I called the number and got to speak to the most delightful young man. He took my info and got back on the phone with me: “Your case is closed because it’s open in District 60.”
Me: “What does that mean?”
Him: “Your case is closed because it’s open in District 60.”
Me: “I’m sorry, that means nothing to me…If I ask you again are you going to repeat yourself?”
Him: “Hmmmm…hold on.” “Hello, ma’am? Yes, your case is closed because it’s open in District 60.”
Me: “OMG…I don’t know what that means….what is “District 60″.
Fucktard: “Rancho Park, Los Angeles.”
Me: “O-kay…I have no idea where Rancho Park is.”
Asshole: “It’s in District 60.”
Me: At this point, I’m trying to figure out how fast I could get to Canoga Park to smack this asshole around. “Okay, what district are you?”
Dickless Wonder: “90…you live where?” I gave him my address. “You live in District 60. So that means, you still have coverage, just not in District 90. Here’s their phone number.”
Me: OMG, for a moment there I thought I was talking to a robot. “Thank you. That was really helpful” Click. [SCREAM]

Do they do shit like this on purpose? I mean, was that all in fun to raise my blood pressure? Anyway, that’s done and I still have coverage. I think.

Pregnancy Symptoms
12w6d
Weight: 242
# of Meals eaten: 2
Symptoms:

• Constipation
• Gas
• Fatigue
• Cravings: String cheese and OJ
• Snippy

Thanks too all of you for the emails chastising me for not updating. First of all let me ’splain…I’m working on the YearlyKos Convention and I have a big responsibility here. I’ve had a lot of stuff to do for that and I even had to go out of town to check on a hotel. SEE? BUSY. Secondly, I’m sooooooooooooooo tired. Yesterday, I took a nap around 11am, woke up at one, then was force to go to Northridge and Culver City to take photos of a site. I got back home around 5pm, got back into bed arond 6pm and woke up at 8pm. By 11pm, I was ready to go back to sleep. See? TIRED.

At any rate, I think it’s just all the incubating, getting yelled at by my mean old husband, playing with the kid and working on the convention. On top of all of that, I’ve been trying to get the layout of my Adirah site right, before I go in and update it and that’s taking forever. Any PHP freaks out there? Your help will be appreciated.